Running Errands

I was out running errands today

and as I was driving

I thought of picking you up for lunch

of you sitting in my car

that first time

and I imagined what you would be wearing

how you would smell

how you would move

and sit

and hold your head

and smile

and how you would sound

if you talked fast or slow

if you were shy or not shy

and I wondered what your hands would look like

how they would move

the fingers

strong or delicate

and I thought of what I would be thinking

which was of kissing you

and I wondered where that would happen

when it would happen

how nervous I would be wondering if you wanted to kiss me too

and I thought of that first movement

when I leaned in

my eyes on your eyes

hyper sensitive to your every move and reaction

looking for any resistance

any hesiation

and then the brushing of lips

softly

just touching

just the lips

as if we could feel our hearts beat in our lips

hear them in our ears

and I would want

just for a second

to feel your breath

on my lips

to feel that warmth

the softness

the desire

then I imagined your hands reaching for my head

pulling me in

your fingers in my hair

and that is where I melted