Sunday, April 30, 2006

114. Silus


Silus was the third Hynerian moon and location of Zing Tao annual solitary treks. Never inhabited, Silus remained pristine in its desert landscape and the perfect place for Ji to instill Zing Tao principles of perspective and humility.

The average Hynerian saw him or herself as the center of the universe, the point of reference to make sense of everything and everyone around them. This egocentric view, Ji knew, would be his greatest challenge in building the Zing Tao, especially his famed Blue Onyx division. Ji also knew training, sharpening the saw, would be a life-long process; hence, the mandatory annual twenty-one day sabbaticals on Silus.

This lack of perspective, Ji felt, whiplashed the average Hynerian emotionally and, emotions, misunderstood for what they were, would and could cloud judgment and literally hijack one’s life. Standing on the great plains of Silus, alone, tended to broaden one’s view, to impose humility and chip away at the delusions of pride that had a way of working themselves back into the mind with each accomplishment.

The foundation of Zing Tao philosophy rested on peace and compassion, both of which grew in the fertile soil of love. Without that soil, without love, there was nothing. Love, Ji taught, was expansive and inclusive. The ego feared it above all else and as such told lie upon lie about the true nature of the single force that bound all life. Ji used Silus as a tool to break through those lies.

Warriors tend to be very prideful and very hard on themselves in the goal of constantly improving their skills. This path, the path of most warrior cultures, stood outside the reality of love, and as such, undermined their ability to effect long lasting change and progress. Ji taught his Zing Tao to see the natural flow and swim in it rather than resist that which was. From love one came and to love one would return. Living a life in harmony with birth and death, living in love with acceptance and understanding of the natural order, knowing that in love birth and death were not two but one, well, that was the challenge.

Von profusely thanked the Zing Tao physicians for his recovery, but those who knew him best felt his time alone on Silus was the turning point in his life.

Now, all that he had learned in his long life, all that Ji and Zeke and Silus, and one might say even his Javalina inquisitors had taught him, all that understanding reached the crossroads of fate. Kyra had touched love, and she was so close to understanding yet not quite there. Purpose met opportunity. Von put away his shield, cleaned up the snoot, washed his face and headed down the hall to visit the one who needed him most, the very reason he was onboard—Kyra.



Saturday, April 29, 2006

113. Neural Trace


Von sat wishing Rog was still there. Reaching to scratch his head, the familiar tingle just under his scalp reminded him he was not alone. Zing Tao physicians had assured him the neural technology employed by the Javalinas had been completely removed, but that much as an amputee can still sense and feel a missing limb, he would probably suffer likewise for the rest of his life.

Javalina inquisitors employed sophisticated neural technology in their interrogations. They implanted nano devices within the brain tissue to gather information the prisoner either refused to divulge or had forgotten he ever knew. The technique produced mixed results for the Javalinas. For the inflicted, however, the procedure was the equivalent of Chinese water torture. Once implanted, the neural trace devices created an unmistakable itch, an itch from within the skull that no amount of scratching could alleviate.

The devices worked on two levels. Often they gathered the information sought. If not, simply left in the skull long enough drove even the most hardened warriors to tears and eventual confession.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

112. Vestiges


Memories of Dauculus were the least of Von's worries. All the snoot on Hyneria could not wipe away three years in the hands of Javalina inquisitors. Torture. Liberation. Peace. Experiences without a language.


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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Intermission

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Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed that the new program began making unexpected changes to the accounting modules, limiting access to flower and jewelry applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

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Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

Desperate

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DO NOT install Mother-In-Law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. Consider buying additional software to improve performance. I personally recommend HotFood 3.0 and Lingerie 5.3.

Also, running Nagging 5.3 too often can sometimes cause Husband 1.0 to secretly install Mistress 1.0, which would then require you to run Private Investigator 7.5 utility and possibly even Attorney 9.0, which could lead to a system wide failure and the need to reboot Husband 1.0!

Everybody clear on this now?

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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

111. Annus Horribilis


Horrors without, horrors within. Dauculus represented the single greatest loss of Zing Tao in the history of the Order. AAR's were never released to the public and those within say even time itself failed to wear down the gates of regret. Zeke never spoke of the matter and until the meeting with Rog, neither had Von.

"Peace is not a place Rog," said Von. "Physical wounds heal. Sometimes the emotional ones, well, sometimes they take a little longer."

Rog took another sip of snoot and Von continued. "We all make mistakes. We all have regrets. Hindsight is 20/20. Would we have done things different on Dauculus if given the chance? Absolutely. Mistakes were made and lives lost. The real damage, and I want you to listen to me very closely, the real damage was not what happened to us, but what we thought about it."

Von leaned back in his chair without breaking eye contact with Rog, judging the measure of the Hynerian's comprehension. Rog gazed down at his glass and swirled the snoot to bring the aroma into play. He wasn't sure if Von's words or the snoot was making him the most dizzy.

"She's going to make it Rog. And she was right; if you had interfered you would have put her life at risk."

"How do you know that Von? How do you know she is going to wake? How do you know I shouldn't have done something when I could?"

"Trust me Rog. Matters of this nature happen for a reason."

"Speaking of reasons, you never did say why you, a mighty Zing Tao, are onboard our ship?"

"I owed a debt."

"What kind of debt?"

"Dauculus Rog. Why do you think I told you that story? I screwed up. My career should have been over. I thought it would be. The Hynerian that should have been most angry, I'm talking about Zeke, took the blame for me. He never reported to Ji nor told anyone else that I was the one that failed the others. Hynerians, some of the most highly trained Zing Tao, reporting directly to Zeke lost their lives because of my mistake."

Rog sat stunned.

"My Kestrel crew failed to provide covering support. Zeke's deployment got ripped to shred's by chaos engineered Raptors. They were defenseless. Caught in the open waters. I can still here the distress signals and radio chatter in my head as if it were yesterday. By the time we arrived it was too late. The damage had been done."

"I'm sorry Von."

"When we landed and I exited my Kestrel, Zeke was the first one to greet me. I expected court martial, on the spot." Von paused, looked down at his drink and then back up at Rog.

"And?"

"With tears in his eyes he hugged me."

Rog looked askew at Von.

"Only a Zing Tao with the ability to make it to the ninth order could have responded with that level of compassion in the heat of the moment. I learned more in that one embrace than my entire training up to that time. And I owe everything else I accomplished because of that Hynerian."

"And how does that lead you to our little ship?"

Von laughed and standing up slapped Rog across the head. "Maybe you should lay off the snoot a bit. I'm here because of Kyra bonehead. Zeke asked me to look after her. I knew it was my chance, my chance to repay the debt."

A loud knock at the door interrupted Rog's response. Yul had found her Hynerian.

Monday, April 24, 2006

110. Pisces


"I don't know if I can let you go," said Kyra.

"There is nothing real to let go, only that which is unreal," responded Kieran.

Kyra tightened her grip.

Kieran continued. "We are as two fishes swimming in the same ocean forever bound by the very fabric of life."

“But why must you leave? Why can’t you stay, stay in this reality and help me?”

“Time.”

Kyra looked puzzled, “Time?”

“You really don’t know do you?”

“Know what?”

Kieran smiled.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

109. Seduction


Yul and Emy starred at the wonderous sight before them, transfixed by the awesome beauty of nature.

"I think we better find Rog," said Emy.

"I think you're right," responded Yul. "Do what you can to keep us at a distance. I'll track him down."

Saturday, April 22, 2006

108. Dark Night

Von's composure changed as he recounted for Rog untold details from Dauculus. "On the fourth night, we discovered we were not alone."

Friday, April 21, 2006

107. Fire and Water


"Kyra, fear not the natural order. What appears to be two worlds are but reflections of one," said Kieran.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

106. Dauculus


"Command, this is Zeke, come in. Repeat. Command, this is Zeke, come in."

. . . static

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

105. The Shield

Rog walked over and opened the closet door. Sitting against the back wall, slightly hidden from direct view was a rather large round object. “Holy Shiott, Von, where the frail did you get this,” said Rog.

“Bring it over here. Ever see one of these before?”

Rog shook his head side to side. “Didn’t know they still existed. How did—“

“It was a gift.”

“Come on Von, you don’t get a Ji Shield as a gift.”

“You do if you pulled Zeke’s hoodie from the fire.”

“No shiott?”

Von laughed. “No shiott. Dauculus campaign, I’m sure you’ve heard of it.”

“No fricken way,” said Rog, “are you telling me--“

“Yep, recruited by the Hynerian himself, and it was a damn good thing he did,” Von winked.

“So you were Zing Tao?”

“Am.”

Rog’s chin moved to his chest and his eyes rolled up as if he were peering over the top of imaginary glasses. “You’re shiotting me, right? I mean what would a Zing Tao be doing on this little podunk ship?”

“Right now, looking at some sorry ass cowhand with his tail between his legs,” laughed Von. “Hold that shield and tell me what you feel.”

Rog stood taking the shield in his right hand. The center section glowed a warm orange and then Rog felt it. “Holy crap Von, what is that?”

“Feel familiar? Concentrate.”

Sunday, April 16, 2006

104. Snoot in the Morning

Rog took a seat across from Von’s desk. The old Hynerian mainly kept to himself and few onboard knew much about him or his past. He loved to tinker with the mechanical aspects of the ship and perhaps knew more about how things worked than anyone else. His aloofness was such that the much younger crew often forgot Von was even onboard.

As quickly as Rog sat he stood up. “Sorry to bother you Von, I’m not sure why I came here, but I won’t waste anymore of your time.”

Von smiled over the top of his oculars. “I think the one thing we all have in abundance is time. Sit down and join me in a drink, southern snoot, I understand you quite like the stuff.”

“Where the hell—“

“Don’t ask,” said Von as he poured the amber liquid in heated crystal snifters, releasing vapors that rolled forth with smooth deliberateness. Half the pleasure of snoot rested in that rich sweet aroma of anticipation, which alone could intoxicate.

Rog held his glass under his nose. Taking a deep breath, half closing his eyes he allowed his mind to wander to better times. He hadn’t had a glass of snoot since they had left Hyneria. Taking the first sip Rog grinned at the familiar warm burning sensation of fine aged snoot on the tongue. There was nothing else quite like it back home.

Von took a sip, rolling the precious liquor with a grin to match Rog’s. “Good stuff, wouldn’t you say.”

“Damn Von, if I had known.”

“Time and place for everything my friend.” Von took another sip, letting the warm liquid smooth the rough edges of the day. “I don’t take it you came by for a social call. What’s on your mind?”

Rog lifted his glass and slammed back the remainder. “Pour me another Von,” said Rog, the grin gone. “I think I might need a little help.”

“Let me guess,” responded Von. “You were in the iso ward with Kyra and you saw a few things, perhaps even felt a few things you can’t explain. These things are making you question everything you thought you knew about yourself and it scares the hell out of you.”

“How could you know that?”

Von laughed. “You might be sorry you asked.”

“Von,” said Rog, taking another long swig of snoot, “I feel like a chasm opened up in that room and the world I knew is now on the other side of the world I’m in. And the crazy thing is, I have no fricken idea what the hell I’m talking about but I can feel it in my bones.”

“Walk over to my closet. I’ve got something you might find of interest.”

103. Beautiful Danger


"Yul, this is Em. Do you know where Rog is?"

"Haven't seen him all morning. Have you checked the infirmary?"

"Yep, not there and Trev hasn't seen him either."

"What's up?" asked Yul.

"I'm on the bridge and we are heading right into . . . well, I'm not sure what it is, but I've got a bad feeling about this."

Friday, April 14, 2006

Thursday, April 13, 2006

100. Port View

Rog stared out the port window. Breathtaking views now seemed mundane. Where is my mind, he thought.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

99. Talk to Me

“What’s wrong Rog?” asked Yul. Rog lay still, staring at the ceiling. “Talk to me baby.”

“I don’t know what to say,” said Rog.

“Say something, anything. Let me in that mind of yours.”

“Door’s always open.”

“Then show me that door, because I can’t seem to find it.”

“I’m sorry darlin’.”

“What are you sorry for?”

“Just haven’t been myself since—“

“I know. Talk to me. Tell me what you saw.”

“I can’t.”

“Can’t or won’t?”

“I don’t know what I saw. I don’t know what I felt.”

Twirling Rog's hair, “Go on baby.”

Silence.

“I can’t help you if you won’t let me.”

Rog sighed.

“Let me help you baby.”

“She loved him.”

“I think we all knew that.”

“I don’t think you understand.”

“Explain it to me then.”

“What I saw and what I felt,” Rog just shook his head, “Yul, I couldn’t begin to tell you.”

“Try Rog. For me, try.”

“The room filled with an energy I can’t explain. Kyra glowed. So did Kieran. The light was blinding. The energy flowed toward me, over me.”

Rog stopped.

“Go on hon.”

“Ever see someone cry tears of blood?”

“What?”

“She was losing him. She cried tears of blood.”

“Are you sure?”

“Not sure of anything anymore.”

“What does that mean?”

“I felt those tears.”

“What are you saying?”

“I can’t explain it. I felt those tears and they ripped my heart wide open.”

“We all cared deeply for them both. I under—“

“NO! You don’t understand because I can’t explain what it meant to be in that room. Let me put it this way. I saw light. I felt light. Yul, do you hear what I am saying.”

Yul sat up in bed. Her playful look gone. “Baby, have you talked to Trev about this?”

“He wouldn’t know anymore what I’m talking about than you do.”

“Give him a chance, maybe he can help.”

“Fuck. Help what. What the fuck do you think he can help with? Tell me Yul.” Rog rolled out of bed and walked to the panoramic view. Fully nude the Hynerian was nothing short of a specimen. Starlight highlighted every ripple of hard flesh.

“Rog, I’m just trying to help.”

“You don’t understand because I don’t understand. But I will tell you this, and mark my words, what I saw, what I felt . . .”

Rog stopped.

“Go on hon.”

“Don’t know how. Damn it. I don’t know how to shake this thing. Do you hear me Yul?”

Yul moved to the edge of the bed, hesitating to walk over. “I’m here.”

“What would you think if I told you I saw darkness?”

“I don’t understand hon, I thought you said you saw light.”

“I did. I saw light. I felt light. And when—“

Rog ran his hands through his hair, grabbing a handful.

“When the light receded, I felt a void, a darkness.”

“Maybe the light affected your eyes.”

“A darkness of absence, a darkness of heart. I felt it Yul.”

Yul looked concerned. This was not the carefree happy-go-lucky Rog she knew. Walking over she placed her arms around his torso pulling him tight to her. “I love you Rog and I can tell you without any doubt there is nothing dark in your heart. Do you hear me?”

Rog tried to smile as he placed his hands on hers.

“I don’t know how to explain it. I’m not who I thought I was. I don’t know what I thought I knew. I can’t shake this feeling.”

Yul started to cry, her tears running down his back.

“I feel heavy,” said Rog. “Everything seems hard, everything is an effort and I’m just tired—all the time. Baby please don't cry.”

“I’m sorry, I can’t help it. Can we sit down?”

“Sure sweetie.”

“Hold me Rog.”

Sunday, April 09, 2006

98. Take Me

“Any change,” asked Yul, dressed in her customary black leather leggings and light grey ribbed tank top. She wore no undergarments in her own quarters and, quite frankly, didn’t need any.

“Afraid not,” said Rog. “Highly active REM sleep, otherwise nothing out of the ordinary if you don’t count sleeping for a week kinda odd.”

Rog walked over to the port window in Yul’s quarters. His eyes looked without seeing. Sights that would have blown him away passed before his eyes as simple sensory impressions. Kieran was gone. Kyra, well, who knew what she would be like when or if she woke. Neraj seemed like years ago.

Yul moved behind Rog. Placing her arms around his waist she pulled herself tight against his back. Her warm soft flesh pressed against his hardened muscle. Warmth transferred between the two and Yul let out a small sigh—it had been more than a week.

“What’s on your mind darlin’,” asked Yul, running her hands through Rog’s hair, her breasts rubbing against his back as she raised her arm. Each long stroke of her hand sent a tingle directly from chest to hip.

“A lot has changed in a short period of time,” answered Rog, enjoying the warmth of Yul’s body. Her hard nipples teasing his flesh and mind with delights promised, delights offered, delights for the taking. Why he didn’t have her face down on the bed right now, working her taut tight body as it begged to be worked, working the stress from his burden, stroke by tense stroke, puzzled him. I suppose, he thought, there was a first time for everything.

“Does anything ever stay the same?” Yul whispered in Rog’s ear letting the warmth of her breath communicate a sense of intimacy. He turned ever so slightly toward her whisper as his lobe nestled between her lips. Yul gently suckled before seizing the moment and biting down. In a coordinated move that a first lieutenant would have been proud of, her hands secured the low ground. A two prong attack.

Rog closed his eyes with a deep sigh. Yul sucked on his lobe, her tongue dancing about in ways that only indicated intent to advance. Rog had known many, but Yul and her enticing purplish-green mane moved him in ways he would have gladly ransomed his soul to experience. And she knew it.

“If you keep doing that, I would have to say no,” answered Rog, rotating his hips forward, which had the net result of pressing his firm glutes into Yul’s midsection. Trying to maintain balance, Rog rotated his arms behind Yul’s back, interlacing his fingers.

Yul’s lips traced small tender kisses along Rog’s external jugular vein, which seemed to be bulging just a little more than normal and consistent with the overall situation. Her tongue flicked back and forth along the vein in movements rapid and slow, a solitary tango of tongue and skin. She had his attention, a feat that had eluded her for the better part of a week. As her kisses moved back toward the hinge of his jaw, her nails likewise traced the contours of his rock hard abs.

Moving her nails from his abs to his nipples, which were about as far as she could move her hands with his arms locked behind her, she lightly grazed first the left nipple and then the right. Taking her index finger and thumb from both hands she took each nipple between her fingers and slowly squeezed, twisted and pinched. Rog let out a soft low moan, his eyes closed and head tilted back. Yul increased the pressure with each rotation of her fingers, wringing out each and every nuance of nerve sensation, twist by twist. He would be sore in the morning but that didn’t much matter now.

Yul rose on tip toe to meet his open lips with hers--a light graze, soft skin against intimate tenderness—an invitation without wait. Eyes opened not to see but to feel. Passion became palpable. Breath intermingled and then with a loud bang, they came crashing to the floor.

“Damn,” said Rog, “I knew that was going to happen. You all right?”

Yul laughed as her hands combed her hair out of her eyes. “Don’t think anything’s broken but I might need a little extra attention around my hips. Think you could be of service or do I need to call for the cabana boy?”

Rog rolled over on top of Yul pinning her to the floor. “Well, my dear, you call the cabana boy and I’ll go check on Em’s private art gallery. I understand she has done some rather erotic work no one has seen yet. You know she’s been asking me to come see.”

Yul tried to slap Rog but he caught her wrist in flight. He pinned her arms to the ground as she put up a mock struggle trying her best to rotate her hips to meet his.

“Well, when she—“

Rog didn’t let her finish. Pressing his lips firmly against hers, cupping her upper lip between his, he gently bit down as if to say you started this beotch, now I’m going to finish it. And Yul had him right where she wanted him.

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

97. REMember

“I need you to let me go,” said Kieran.

“And if I refuse?”

“I can’t leave if you won’t let me.”

“Bullshit.”

Kieran didn’t respond.

“You heard me. That’s bullshit. You are not going to lay this on my shoulders. I’ve been busting my ass to save you and so has Trev. Rog and Emy put themselves in harm’s way just to give you a chance and now you are just going to sit there and tell me you need to leave? Where the hell do you think you’re going and what makes you think they need you more than we do?”

“Kyra, I don’t expect you to understand.”

“For crying out loud, don’t patronize me Kieran. You know me better than that. Has the virus affected your brain?”

Kieran laughed. “Perhaps. So you want me to call a spade a spade. Think you can handle it?”

“Take your best shot,” said Kyra.

“You’re in love with me and I mean love with a small “l” and it’s clouding your judgment. You're not acting in the best interest of anyone including yourself.”

“No, no, no, don’t you dare go there.”

“You're being a selfish little bitch Kyra. This whole episode has been about you. Even now you're risking your life, and oh by the way, if you get the virus, there ain’t a damn thing I or anyone else is going to be able to do to help you. Trev was right. Do you hear me Kyra, Trev was right. You should have never come in here.”

“What’s that data-slate tell you?” asked Rog.

“Hard to tell. Physically I can find no sign of the virus and her hands are healing quite nicely but . . .”

“But what Trev?”

“She should have awakened by now. I’m a little concerned at the length and intensity of her REM sleep. I’ve never seen a patient sleep this long nor have this level of activity.”

“Think we should try to wake her? It’s been a week,” said Rog.

“No. Could do more harm than good. As long as her vital signs look fine, we’ll stay the course. Can I ask you a question?”

“Shoot.”

“Would you tell me what happened in the ward?”

“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you. So don’t ask me again,” said Rog as he turned and walked away.

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96. Red Tear



Rog paced back and forth. Half of Kieran’s sheets were now dark red with Kyra’s blood. Kyra’s trembling no longer looked concentrated and controlled but rather odd, rather unnatural. Then a tear. Not a normal tear but a red tear. He felt his heart rise into this throat. Did she really know what she was saying when she asked him not to interfere? Should he, could he just stand by and watch her throw her life away?

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Friday, April 07, 2006

95. Swimming in your Soul (Part 2)

Kyra moved to the left side of Kieran’s bed. Rog moved to the right. The room felt cold, looked cold, was cold. White sheets, silver metal and the lonely smell of medication greeted the pair. Kyra resisted the thought, the association of that smell with death.

Kieran’s complexion, his pale grayish pallor, reflected an eerie sense of peace and transition. Kyra wondered if they were too late. Was this going to be the story--too late with the agent, too late with her visit, too late for Kieran?

Rog looked across the bed as if to say now what.

“No matter what you see Rog,” Kyra responded, “you must not interfere. Is that clear?”

Rog leaned his head slightly to the right. His tight lips rolled inward, cheeks rose and eyes squinted. Kyra had never known a Hynerian with a more expressive or communicable face. As much as Rog loved to talk, he really could have got along quite well without ever saying anything.

“Rog. Promise me. No matter how much you think you might need to step in, no matter what you think you see or how much danger you think I’m in, promise me, promise me here, promise me now, you will not interfere.”

Rog weighed the measure of her request. Kyra leaned her head to match his, signaling her desire for a reply.

“No matter?” asked Rog, looking for wiggle room to hedge his commitment.

“No matter,” answered Kyra.

“Ok.”

“Ok what?”

“You have my word.”

Taking a slow steady deep breath, he watched Kyra reach out and take Kieran’s hands in hers. Warm pink flesh wrapped around cold lifeless digits. Kyra’s eyes closed and her hands started to tremble. The open cuts trickled bright red blood on the clean white sheets.


“Hello Kyra,” said Kieran. “Good to see you again my friend.”

Kyra looked around. The bed was gone. So was Rog. Rapidly blinking her eyes, trying to regain her usually sharp focus she was stuck by a glow. Everything seemed just a little soft, just off-focus enough to disorient.

“Don’t be afraid Kyra. Nothing can harm you here.”

“Where am . . . I mean, where are we and where is Rog?”

Kieran smiled. She had seen that smile before. Where? Where had she seen it?

“Don’t you know Kyra? You called me here.”

The room glowed white. In fact, everything was white: the walls, their clothes, the table and chairs. Kyra sat directly across from Kieran. Her hands still tightly locked on his. No blood, her cuts completely healed.

Rog watched in wonder and terror. Sweat dripped off Kyra’s brow—so strange since the room was so cold. Her entire body appeared to tremble in intense concentration. Blood flowed forth from Kyra’s hands. My god, he thought, if she keeps bleeding like this she won’t have to worry about contracting the virus. Then he felt the impulse.

“I don’t want to lose you. Please help me help you. I know together we can beat this virus,” said Kyra.

“That is true. You have the ability to pull me through and beyond this illness, to pull me back into your world. You have the gift. Otherwise, we wouldn’t be having this conversation would we?” Kieran smiled again.

Kyra looked strangely back at Kieran. His words seemed not to compute, their meaning eluded her, his intent seemed distant.

“You’re not coming back are you?” asked Kyra.

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Thursday, April 06, 2006

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94. Prelude

Rog tenderly cut away the bandages on Kyra’s hands. Neither said a word but the cuts ran deeper and were more disturbing than either had thought. Her wounds, as Trev stated, were still open.

“Rog, you can let go of my wrists now,” said Kyra.

“Um, right,” hesitated Rog. He couldn’t help but wonder if the same base emotions that had cause these cuts were not also clouding her judgment.

“What’s on your mind Rog?”

“You know I don’t give a rat’s arse for Trev, but--”

“You’re wondering if he’s right, if Kieran is a lost cause and if I’m foolishly throwing away my life by walking into the ward with these hands. Is that it?”

The sheepish look on Rog’s face confirmed her query. Placing her forearms on Rog’s shoulders, Kyra leaned in close to Rog, their eyes just a few inches apart. “If that was Yul in the ward and you had the ability to save her, even if it meant you were putting your own life at risk, would you do it?”

“Are you sure you have that ability?” responded Rog, tipping his forehead ever so slightly forward as his eyes rolled upward.

Kyra leaned her forehead against Rog’s, her eyes matching his. “I’m sure of only one thing,” she whispered. “If we continue to stand here and debate, the point will soon be moot. I’ve never asked you this before but I’m asking now. Trust me.”

Rog stared back for a second before taking Kyra in his arms. “Rog, hon, is that a yes?”

“Let’s go do this thing,” answered Rog, “whatever this thing might be.”

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

93. Dance of the Fireflies

“Kyra, let’s walk on the beach. I want to show you something.”

“Now Papa, you said you were going to tell me what you wanted me to know and I’m going to hold you to it.”

“I will child. Just think of this as show and tell,” laughed Papa. “I think you will enjoy the show. Look over to your left, into the trees. Do you see it?”

Kyra squinted, not knowing exactly what she was looking for. “Afraid I don’t see anything but shadows.”

“Try this,” said Papa. “Close your eyes. Now ever so slowly start to open them. As you open your eyes stop as soon as you see light.”

Kyra closed her eyes feeling much like a young girl about to be given a present. The moment was, for lack of a better explanation, delicious. Her body trembled in step with the neurons dancing in her mind. Papa was taking her through a basic Zing Tao technique of tone and light differentiation. The idea, create awareness of movement, of light and how it changes with one’s view. The lesson, that all things change, that nothing stays the same, was one of the first that Papa had ever taught her. Why, she wondered, was he coming back to such a basic understanding?

As her eyes slowly opened just a hint of green and then red light appeared. Moving rapidly in graceful and elegant curves the light brightened and then trailed off only to reappear brighter than before. There appeared to be twenty or thirty separate points of light, all moving, all changing.

“Oh my,” said Kyra.

“Slowly open your eyes all the way and the lights will remain in focus.”

“They’re beautiful Papa, but what are they?”

“Fireflies.”

“Fireflies?”

“Not just any fireflies Kyra. You’ve never seen one’s like this before because there are no other ones like this on Hyneria.”

“They’re beautiful Papa, but I’m not sure I understand?”

Papa smiled, placing his hand on her shoulder. “Do you feel the warmth in my hand?”

“Yes Papa.”

“Feels a bit warmer than normal doesn’t it?”

“Yes.”

“Feel the warmth start to flood the rest of your body?”

“Yes.”

“Curious?”

“You are killing me Papa. Spit it out. Tell me what happened on the bridge. Tell me what is happening now and tell me what this has to do with these exotic fireflies.”

“What you feel and what you see is Love,” said Papa, fully knowing she wouldn’t know what to make of that statement.

Kyra’s eyes moved quickly back and forth across Papa’s face looking for some clue. The tri moonrise cast the most interesting blend of warm and cool light and features not normally seen stood out. Papa’s face, every crease, every wrinkle bespoke of adventure and lore, of history and love. Kyra could never quite remember seeing another face so rich in interest.

“Kyra, lift your arm. Now tell me, how did you do that?”

“I suppose telling you my mind told my muscles what to do is not the right answer.”

“Kyra that answer is as perfectly right as telling me the notes make the music. Yet,” Papa paused.

“There’s always a yet isn’t there,” smiled Kyra.

“Yes my child, there is always a yet,” Papa smiled back with a wink, “although this yet is perhaps the most important yet of all.”

“So it’s a matter of yets then. Got it. Next lesson,” chided Kyra.

“The force that moves your arm is the same force that raises the moons. Love Kyra. Forget everything you think you know about Love. The warmth you felt—Love. The lights you see—Love. The space between the notes--”

“Yes, Love,” said Kyra. “Papa, can I tell you something?”

“Please.”

“You are doing a lousy job on this lesson. I have no idea what you are talking about,” said Kyra in her most mock serious voice.

Papa almost fell over with laughter. “No worries. Few do. Few are able to comprehend and even fewer are able to play in the fields of Love. You are one of those few.”

“Okay, so what exactly does that mean?”

“Kyra, here it is as clearly as I can say it. Love is the energy, the life-force, the glue if you will that holds everything together, the sets everything in motion, that keeps everything moving. Where you see movement, you see Love. Let me say that again, where you see movement you see Love.”

“But everything moves Papa. Nothing stands still.”

“Exactly!

“Okay, so we are back to exactly,” laughed Kyra.

“Give me your hands again. Feel that?”

“Yes.”

“That is Love. Here, you try.”

“Try what?”

“Hold my hands, hold them in Love just like I did.”

Kyra took Papa’s hands in hers. She focused, concentrated. Nothing. Just hands holding hands. No warmth, no tingle, no sense of peace and calm.

“I don’t know how to do what you did Papa. Is there some trick I’m missing?”

“Missing yes, trick no. Kyra, Love is a force, without it there is nothing. That force is as real and tangible as you and I. As much as I can reach out and touch you, I can also reach out and touch Love. Do you understand what I am saying?”

“I heard the words but I don’t know what it means to reach out and touch Love, assuming you are not speaking metaphorically.”

“Ahhh, now we are getting somewhere. No metaphor here. There is nothing abstract about Love. The idea, as most understand it, is not Love, can never be Love, will never be Love. Love is not an idea anymore than you or I are ideas. Okay, let me spell it out as clearly as I can. Love is real. Everything you and I are, everything you see and don’t see, everything that is, is Love.”

Kyra stood in the dim light. Papa’s face looked as if there was a glow about it. The more he talked about this thing he was calling Love the more animated he seemed to get.

“Kyra, you have the ability, just as I do, to reach out and physically touch the depth of reality. Do you understand what I am saying? You, not everyone, but you have the ability to change the course, the flow of events. The very life-force, the very thing that makes orange orange or blue blue, you have the ability to swim in that current.”

“I don’t see—”

“Not now child, you aren’t there yet, but you have the ability and few are given that gift. It took me many years of close tutelage from Ji himself before I knew what I was doing. Your gifts, my child, are greater than mine.”

“So what do these fireflies have to do with all this?” asked Kyra.

“Ahh, I was wondering when you were going to ask. They don’t exist on the normal plane of light. There is a wavelength reserved just for Love. These fireflies live on that wavelength. Only those with the gift can see them. And you know what Kyra?”

“What Papa?”

“You are the first Hynerian, besides myself, to ever see them.”

Monday, April 03, 2006

92. Answer the Question

Kyra looked around the lab. Everyone accounted, standing shoulder to shoulder in tight quarters. Oddly enough, the room seemed empty without Kieran.

“I appreciate everyone coming down on such short notice,” said Kyra, her eyes moving slowly around the room. Trev stood to her left, everyone else directly in front.

“I want to start by congratulating Rog and Emy for a job well done. The mission to Neraj was a success. Risking life, they returned with the agent of retribution and Trev has administered the agent to Kieran.” Heads nodded in respect.

“Let me start with an update. I won’t beat around the bush. Kieran has fallen into a coma. The agent appears to be overwhelmed by the ferocity of the virus at this advanced stage. In short, it’s not working. Prognosis, it’s only a matter of hours, if that.”

Kyra paused to allow her comments to soak in. Surveying the room she noticed not a single pair of eyes had broken contact with hers nor was there a single tear, yet.

“At least that’s what science tells us.”

Kyra paused again. Her bearing, missing only the conductor’s baton, took command of the atmosphere. The room filled with the sound of breathing, the invisible umbilical cord to life.

“Well?” queried Rog, breaking the silence and birthing “well” with his eyes, cheeks and vocal cords as if it had three syllables and weighed ten pounds.

“I think you heard what she said,” snapped Trev before Kyra could respond, still smarting from his earlier encounter with her. “We’ve all done everything we could, no one is at fault. If he hadn’t been a child of the shells we wouldn’t even be having this conversation now.”

Rog rarely lost his temper but Trev had a way of getting under his skin and if he was insinuating or trying to absolve him of some non-existent guilt, well . . . the thought was cut off with a look from Kyra. Then she looked at Trev as if to say the floor is all yours but I think you’re going to need a shovel if you continue down that path.

“What I meant to say,” started Trev, until Kyra’s gaze told him it was time to shut up. “What I meant to say, is Kyra believes we still have a chance.”

“Is that true?” asked Em, her eyes as big as saucers reflecting a glint of fear. The lower lip of her eyes, with ever so slight a tremble, held back a flood of tears.

“I believe we still have a chance,” said Kyra.

“What’s the plan?” asked Rog.

Kyra sighed. Rog’s can-do attitude energized her resolve. “I’m afraid I need to go this one alone.”

“I’m not going to let--”

“I know you’re not Rog, which is why I love you to pieces. There is one thing you can do.”

“Consider it done.”

“Take the crew down to the chapel and pray like you’ve never prayed before.”

“Now you know,” Rog started to say.

“I know Rog. Recite the periodic table if you must; just recite like the words would unlock the map to our new homeworld. Can you do that?”

The outside corners of Rog’s eyes dipped to meet the upward curve of his closed lip smile. At times like this he wondered why not Kyra, until he felt Yul’s hand on his shoulder.

“I’m leaving my comm on. You call and I’m there. Are you sure--”

“I’m sure Rog. Now get going.”

As soon as the crew had left Kyra turned to Trev. “Get the scissors. I need you to cut these bandages off my hands.”

“May I ask why?”

“I can’t do what I need to do with them on,” said Kyra

“Would you mind telling me what you intend to do?”

“Trev, I don’t have time to explain. Would you please just get the scissors?”

“No.”

“What!?”

“Kieran’s as good as dead and if you walk into that room with these open cuts you are as good as dead too.” Kyra had never seen Trev quite like this before. Why he was digging his haunches into the ground like an angry bulldog defied her understanding.

“Kyra, I know you don’t blame me for Kieran’s,” Trev caught himself, “for what has happened to Kieran, but I will not be responsible for you foolishly throwing away your life in a, damn it, I need to say it and you need to hear it, in a lost cause.”

“Trev, listen to me.”

“I’m not letting you walk into that iso ward with open cuts. I’m just not going to do it.”

“Trev, what if I told you I would be in no danger?”

“Impossible.”

“Trev, will you at least admit if we stand here arguing, Kieran will die?”

“That’s a cheap shot and you know--”

“Damn you, answer the question!”

Kyra never saw it coming and apparently neither did Trev.

“I’m sorry sweetie, but that little snot-nosed dilettante had it coming,” said Rog.

“Rog, such big words, a girl might get the wrong impression if you keep that up.”

Rog thought for a sec, hesitated again, and decided he would let that one slide. “Give me those hands.”

Question

Next chapter is written but I have no image to go with it. Should I post the chapter sans image or wait till I have something somewhat suitable?

Sunday, April 02, 2006

91. Reunion Interruptus

“Who’s there?” asked Yul.

“You damn well know who’s there, open the door,” shot back Rog.

Yul unlocked the door and made sure the first thing Rog saw as he entered her quarters was her backside. Like Kyra, Yul believed in wearing form-fitting leather as only a woman with something to display would. She didn’t understand all that Zing Tao mumbo jumbo Kyra liked to talk about but she loved the workouts Kyra put them through, and apparently so did Rog.

“You’re not still pissed at me are you darlin?” said Rog, trying to project a tone of forgiveness into the wrong words. Yul wasn’t sure if Rog was just boneheaded at times or overconfident in his own charm. Of course, a large part of Rog’s appeal was his confidence, but he was going to have to work a little harder if he wanted to caress the inside of her vespersian black leather today.


“Oh Rog,” Yul purred in her best false seductress voice purposefully sitting in her chair, not the bed, with legs crossed, “whatever makes you say that?” If looks good change the ambient temperature Yul succeeded.

“Hon, you know if I had taken you down to Neraj we would probably still be there. Besides, you should thank me for saving you from one helluva ride."

Yul laughed, “You just don’t know when to stop do you. Since when have I not loved one helluva ride. So--”

Rog moved behind Yul, his strong rough-hewn hands resting on her shoulders. His fingers just touching her collar bone while his thumbs slowly massaged ever deepening circles along her shoulder blade. “Don’t even go there. She’s just a girl. Beside, you know what they say about absence,” said Rog, his tone influenced as much by the curve and cleavage of Yul’s twins as much as any sense of absence.

“Rog, hon, if you throw one more ‘besides’ into the conversation I’m going to slap you.” Yul sat up a little straighter, in part to give Rog’s thumbs a better angle and in part to make sure her twins, as she liked to call her main frontal assets, were on full display. She had purposely positioned her chair so see could see Rog’s reflection behind her. Of course, she didn’t need the reflection to tell her where Rog’s eyes were or his intentions.

“So, what did you and Em do with all that spare time once you returned to the surface? Several hours with nothing to do. Come on Rog, I know you better than that. She might be a girl, as you say, but you can’t deny she is a very attractive and sexy little girl.” Oh this is fun, thought Yul.

Rog laughed. “Oh Yul, you are good. Okay, okay, so I shagged the little vixen silly. You should have seen her, the poor child could hardly walk and you would have thought the cat had stolen her tongue. Oh, and--” Rog caught himself just at the line between playful and needlessly hurtful.

“And what darlin,” cooed Yul. “Please don’t stop on my account.”

Before Rog could answer the mood was broken by Trev’s somber voice. “Rog and Yul, Kyra needs you both in my lab right now.”

Yul immediately stood up. “Let’s go Rog. Oh, and Rog?”

“Yes?”

“We ain’t finished here,” said Yul, slapping Rog hard on the rear.