Saturday, August 04, 2007

320. Matutinal Mercy



Steps were heard. Heavy boots, leather and metal slapping and clicking against the silent face of smooth worn stone, the pace methodical, the foot porcine but not clumsy. The rhythm of the stride belied one leg longer than the other and Rog wondered how much abuse his jailer had endured by those more fortunate in birth. Thoughts of home, a place where difference was celebrated, flooded his heart. A child of the shells this man would have been. And Rog wondered how this man’s life would have been different, how his fate would have taken a different course on Hyneria.

The cell door opened, as these doors were wont to do, with a heaviness felt on the skin as much as heard in the ear. One set of dull dark eyes, standing, took account of two sets wide and bright, sitting. The air felt humid, heavy, and each breath felt as fish must feel in labored exchange of effort for life. The soft water seemed to hang in the air as if air and water were easy neighbors long accustomed to cohabitation and conspiring such that the walls sweated reflective beads of cold fear, walls that knew the souls of many men having met once but never again. They say if walls could talk, but these walls chose not, for some things were better not remembered.

No words were uttered as the unbalanced man placed a tray in the center of the cell. He looked again at John and then Rog before backing out of the room and locking the door, the key squealing closure as steps loud became soft until only the sound of labored breathing could be heard.

The tray held two thin octagonal glasses with a crimson hued liquid sitting steady at three quarters mark. John spoke first. “The matutinal drink. Mercy in a glass.”

Rog held his glass up to the dim light. The liquid seemed to glow, to hum, almost as if alive, as if a thousand tiny voices called forth and demanded obedience. Rog put the glass to his lips—”Put that down,” yelled John.

16 comments:

Autumn Storm said...

I did wonder whether to wait til morning before coming here, knowing that if there was a new chapter up, it would be too late in a very long day to even imagine doing it justice.

I do so love the way you write, I love the images that you create, the metaphors that are able in a way that a regular description regardless of how detailed might not to convey an idea, a mood, the atmosphere, etc. The part about the walls, the many souls that have spent time there, feeling the same way that Rog and John do at this moment, the way it is written here gives it such a sense of endlessness, each of those souls having a story to tell. It put a picture in my mind of John and Rog in front of two mirrors facing each other, each looking into one, blank expressions on their faces, much more to see in their eyes, and the endless reflections of themselves and each other.

That first part was a wonderful reminder of Hyneria and the Children of the Shells, how not only is difference tolerated and accepted, but celebrated (not the word I was wanting). Rog's pondering not only opens a gateway, invites us to do the same, but it shows us once again, his heart.

I wonder too at Rog lifting the glass, whether he did not hear, or whether he didn't understand, or whether he both heard and understood and lifted it anyway.

I may say it often, but frequency does not diminish the truth behind it, loved this chapter.

Trée said...

Sunshine, Rog didn't know. What I find most interesting about this chapter is how Rog is able to think of the fate of another, and feel sympathy for that person, within hours of his own demise. This is a side of Rog I had always hoped was there, and now, for the first time, we see, what I would like to think, are his true colors. I think I like Rog now more than ever before. There is substance, real genuine substance in this very small scene. Think about it. If you were about to be unjustly put to death, would you give a flying flip for your jailer? Would you have anything but anger and hatred in your heart? Yet, here is Rog, and based just on a sound, he finds a place in his heart, a place that makes me see Rog in a very different light. In short, my respect for the Hynerian has grown beyond measure.

As always, your faithful reading of the story, and your engaged comments, thrill me to no end. Thank you Sweetest. There is no other like you. :-)

Poppet

Grace said...

The thing that I noticed was most was the color of the liquid. Crimson. There it is again, that red, and all that it stands for.

I wonder if most of us wouldn't do what Rog did in this moment when he viewed the jailer. And that is to ask the question, "How would my life have been different if....."

I don't believe he could have felt this question upon looking at the jailer, if he hadn't already felt it in the depths of his own heart.

I've been waiting for this chapter, it seems, for days now. Thank you for allowing the story to unfold within you, so that it could touch all of us.

Trée said...

Oh Grace, you slipped your comment in before I was able to add the image. Only fitting that the matutinal drink be crimson for a crime of infidelity.

Grace, you are absolutely correct. The thought is a reflection of the heart. And what a heart Rog has. I only wish Yul was there to see it, to see him for what he is, which is not perfect, but good to the core. Life is that way isn't it. Shades of gray. And not everyone that knows us sees the same shades. Some people love us and think we hung the moon and other people hate us for no good reason. Still, everyone tends to see us through their own eyes, from the vantage point of their own universe. Rog is in a spot, hours before death, where all that falls away. Opinion, especially of others toward him, no long matters. He knows who he is. He knows what he is. And as readers, we see what he knows. His heart is good. He will meet his maker soon. Rog is at peace.

Thanks Grace for your kind words. Always much appreciated. Thank you my dear friend. :-)

Grace said...

:) I love you

Trée said...

Grace, you are making me blush now. :-)

Grace said...

:) I wanted you to know that I 'see' you and love you for who you are.

Sometimes I confuse your words about your character with (perhaps) your own self.

I get confused easily these days but I know what I feel. I love the person you are...in all the shades that I know about.

Trée said...

Grace, you are a marvel. Likewise, as I have gotten to know you and all your shades, I can say without any doubt, I love you too, all of you, not just the good little parts I want to get into the shower. :-)

I was deeply touched by your comments tonight. I want to save them to read over and over again. To an extent, I am all of my characters. I was Rog tonight and I was the jailer. When you cycle, you learn alot about your body. I never knew it, but just a couple years ago, while trying to get the perfect bike fit, x-rays revealed that my right leg is 13mm longer than my left. When I was a child, my uncle used to make fun of the way I walked. I didn't know how to walk any different than I was walking and was quite frustrated at having a funny walk, as he saw it. Little did I know why until 35 some odd years later. So Rog has the ability to hear the walk and know why, but more importantly, to see how that might have shaped who that person is, and what sort of experiences that person might have had.

I'm in Louisiana right now visiting my mother and we took an alligator bayou tour tonight. The air here is so humid and the water so soft I just had to write about it, so again, a personal experience shapes a chapter.

Most of all though Grace, I want to say thank you for being so incredibly generous with your heart. I wish I was there to listen to your story and hug you when you were done and say in my best Rog voice, "Hey, that's bullshiott." LOL

Love to you Grace. And a hug or two too. :-)

Grace said...

LOLOLOL Now you're making me blush

I just pictured us grinning at each other while we try to say that "It's all bullsheeeeeeit" ;)

Have a great time with Mom and don't tangle with any gators. We all need to know what happens to Rog and John next!

Sweet dreams. and thanks. I'm off to bed with a smile and a warmed heart. xoxo

Trée said...

Sweet Dreams Grace. You've warmed my heart tonight more than you know. Thank you my dear friend for being so kind to me. I won't easily forget. :-)

Grace said...

(((( Trée )))) Happy Mondy :) and thanks for the offer of an 'ear'... I think you might have seen what happened yesterday. No worries. A couple of clicks and it's all taken care of and I'm doing just wonderfully today.

Just in case no one has told you today, LOVE YA :-P

~d said...

(sshhh. I know right how to get to Prarieville. Should I bring Jack Daniels, wine or do you have another preferred poison?)

Trée said...

Grace, I did see his Jackassery. Some people have no shame or sense. Just arrived home from a ten hour drive. Good to be home and good to see your kind words. You know, you can have more than just an ear if you like. :-D

Trée said...

~d, just yourself and your eyes is all that is needed. I've got my own supply of Jack. :-D

Mona said...

I like your fluid movement descprtion here. The laboured breath like a fish might feel is classic. I could almost see the gills move!

Trée said...

Thank you Mona. You make me smile. :-)